Inscribing Impotence

For long I have considered writing as my catharsis. Since atleast the 6th standard, when I wrote my first short story which Mrs. Dubey, my then English teacher, dismissed so conveniently, I can remember writing as a fond activity. I'd love to write, give vent to my creative urges, which couldn’t somehow be satiated with painting (which, for the records, was one of the subjects were I was graded). The activity that got closest to writing would definitively have been running (athletics kind of running, not the one where you are escaping, you fool:) )

Today's piece is about writing, so I'll let that hog the lime light. Of late, I just couldn’t write. Not that I didn’t want to write, I did. Not that I felt wanting for stuff to write on, I had something. Not that I didn’t have an objective, I did. Yet, I couldn’t.

Then the meeting happened. I met with my big man of the media industry, my editor, yesterday and conveyed to him, in brief, what I had been going through. After all, I hadn’t written anything for him for quite a while too. But he was re-assuring, comforting me that the phase I was going through was normal even for seasoned folks like him.

Then of course there is MB. The only worthy audience I write for who is also, one, if not the most, well read folks around me. Not to forget someone who, I feel, is overly praiseful of my write-ups. To say that she had been looking forward to me writing something would be just as subtly as I can put it. Unfortunately, as life would have it, I couldn’t.

I couldn’t but help notice my situation which was akin to a man/woman's involuntary and melancholic impotence. Something that one wants to overcome yet finds it defeating in however much effort is spent in overcoming it. Much like a fighting effort spent to stay afloat in quicksand which ends up sinking you further. Anyways, enough of melodrama and now I think I am back. (Please note the usage of 'I think':)- I am yet to give a testimonial for my own belief!)

But I am feeling good and looking forward to some writing!!!